Time to start using this again
And rant for a bit.
Benson needs to get over the 8 dollars I owe him and stop calling me 30 times a day
As strange as he is, there’s something about Brian that is extremely intriguing and I need to figure out exactly what that is. I think me and him will be hanging out a hell of a lot this summer.
Jesse has spiraled so deep into drug addiction that he has lost control of his life and is pretty much a cop magnet that is just waiting to be busted. But I’ll be damned if it doesn’t make him incredibly exciting to hang out with. I make it a point to chill with that nigga every day.
Yocius is my best friend. Never thought the day would come where I would say that.
I hope rehab works for Alec because he is basically a clone of me when I was his age. But I will never ever ever ever tell him I used to be like that because he looks up to me way too much. Actually, it kinda scares me how much he looks up to me. I’m no role model.
Maria graduates from high school next week. But she isn’t aware that the main reason I’m going to graduation is just because of her. Yocius is graduating too, but he definitely couldn’t care less if I show up or not. It’s just that Maria amazes me on various levels. She’s special, that’s for sure. I’m glad me and her have stayed close for this long.
Other than Gary, the entire crew I used to hang out with hates me now.
Matty Z, Pat, and that entire crew think I’ve gone completely fucking insane.
Papsun thinks I’m depressed.
Rob told me on Friday night that I “seem like a broken man compared to who I once was”
Silky thinks I’ve turned into an asshole
Brian Lee is going to be Mountain Top’s biggest drug dealer in two years. Mark my words.
I’ve had the reputation as THE pothead of Mountain Top since I was 15. I’m really trying to shed that label. The cops hate me, my friends parents hate me, and the general population of Mountain Top hates me because of the way I was when I was 16. 3 years later and my past is still stuck to me.
I think weed made me slower and I’m glad I’ve stopped smoking. Between October 2008 and March 2010, I consistently smoked between an 8th and a quarter every single day. Looking back, holy shit was that a crazy time period. I wasn’t sober for 95% of 2009. I went to school blazed as hell every day of senior year and no one ever noticed. January and February of 09 I was selling pounds upon pounds of weed and smoking close to a half ounce a day sometimes. It was a blast at the time, but I’m happy those days are behind me. I’m glad to be consistently sober again.
It’s almost 5AM. I need sleep.
